Third Trimester is here, along with ramblings

Okay so I know I said I would post more and be better, and I am going to because one or two posts a month just is not good for keeping up with what is going on with us. But it won't happen for a little while longer, because our desktop is sick. I was on it one day and a thing popped up and it was a virus and we can't get it off so we had to take it to the Tech savvy people. So there will be no pictures until I get the desktop because Daryl's laptop doesn't have a port for my SD card.

So this post is more for record keeping sake, so it may be boring for some.

But I just have to talk about the fact that I am in my third trimester and only have 12 or less weeks left I hope less. I really can't believe it has gone by this fast, it is somewhat sad as well. This baby will most likely be our last and well it is sad to think it is almost over. This pregnancy really has been a great one. I guess it is all in the attitude of the person, because well my attitude has been different with this one. I love feeling her move and squirm, with Paiglee I just wanted her to sit still for a minute (she moved a ton). This baby doesn't move as much but she has certain times she really kicks and wiggles up a storm. Mostly at night, and morning and then late evening times. Paiglee has also felt her move one evening we were sitting around and she was kicking pretty hard so I told Paiglee to come here and put her hand on my tummy. I put her hand there and pressed it a bit and right when I did that the baby kicked hard and it startled Paiglee and she jerked her hand away. She was really shy after feeling her move. I have tried to be really good with my personal journal in writing the details of this pregnancy. Paiglee I remember hers but I look back at her journal and I wasn't very detailed, so weird since she was my first.

I get days where I am excited to have this baby and am uncomfortable and don't know if I can make it. But really I have far more days of please let this day take a little longer to pass. I also have nothing ready for this baby, by this point with Paiglee I had everything ready I think, just small things to deal with. I guess it is part of me just holding off thinking about her coming out. Ever since my second trimester and when I announced this pregnancy, things have flown. I mean heck in three weeks it is Thanksgiving. Where the heck did the last few months go.

Paiglee is really blooming into quit the little girl. She has become so talkative; she was before with Daryl and I more so and not so much with other people. But she now talks everywhere we go and sometimes I catch myself thinking can you please just shut up. But I can't say that because we don't say shut up. I know I am one of those people. But if Paiglee can't say it well then either can we and she tells us when we have used that word. But she talks about the baby a lot more how she is best friends with her. The other day she was in a lovey mood and I was trying to get ready and she kissed my belly while I was doing something. I know super kinda corny but it made me feel good. Because she knew darn well that kiss was not for me because she then asked to kiss me. Paiglee does my pet peeve and does refer to the baby as Emery, and I do talk to her about how Emery is in there and will come out. And Paiglee talks about how Emery is going to play with her. But this is the only time and the only exception I will make for it to happen, any other time it drives me nuts.

Also something pretty funny about Paiglee, we were driving in the car I was running some errands and she was talking. I don't always pay attention because really she talks a ton to where I have to ask her for quite time so I can just think in peace. But she was talking to me about all kinds of things her friends her Halloween party we just had at school. Then what really caught my attention is she says, "Mom Hunter has a girlfriend" (Hunter is the little boy her age that I baby sit twice a week along with his baby brother). I said, "Hunter has a girlfriend?" "Yeah", I then ask "who is Hunter's girlfriend?" and I look in the rearview mirror not wanting to really hear the response but so curious. She then replies in a shy manner with her hands going to her mouth, something she does when shy "meee" and she smiles. I think I stopped looking in the rearview mirror and my mouth dropped. Then I told her "Paiglee you are too young to be a girlfriend, or to be talking about it". I told her you and Hunter are friends but you will not be boyfriend girlfriend. I really can't believe that happened, I know she has no clue what it means. I mean she is sheltered and I realize more and more every time I watch Hunter how sheltered she really is. I mean she didn't even know what a DS was until Hunter brought it around. She didn't even know the words kill or die and how to use them in context until Hunter came around. She has learned a ton with him. But I just wish she never had to learn it. I mean I really was hoping to not talk about girlfriend boyfriend stuff for at least a year or two. I know she will be exposed to all this at school and then some, not pre-school but school. I just am not ready for it one bit. She is still my baby and to me acts like a baby too much to be talking about this stuff. But nonetheless I am excited to watch Hunter this next week to see if he thinks Paiglee is his girlfriend. And if so I will have a little talk with both. Oh and Paiglee will talk about kissing now like "ooooo... you kissed so and so" or something like that and Hunter and Paiglee tease each other like that, so weird. How does she know kissing is something to "ooooo..." about? But Hunter has a brother four years older than him and that is where he gets all his information, then shares it with Paiglee and me. It has made me realize wow this is what I will be dealing with when Paiglee is in third grade and this one is four years old. Not real excited about it.

Another funny thing, so in our house there are some words that are not to be said like: shut up (especially if you are telling someone, I joke with Daryl and I have had to watch that because Paiglee can't discern between funny teasing and being mean), stupid, using the Lords name in vain (we don't do this one at all but Paiglee picked it up during the summer, I couldn't figure out where until I watched some of her normal shows with her and realized they say it) she slips with this one sometimes but we have it under control for the most part, it is such a big no, no word it usually gets timeout when said, then of course any curse word. I have also had to tell her it is inappropriate to talk about poo and farting and stuff like that. Having a boy around for some reason that is a big topic of discussion. I have had to nix many things that I just thought I wouldn't have to. But I just really never thought I would be one to not allow the word stupid or shut up in my home, it took one time of her telling me to shut it. Then it was nixed. I think Paiglee might feel to some degree more words than not are bad. Just yesterday I said mammal and she looked at me and said "uh we don't say that word don't ever say that word again” I said Paiglee mammal is not a bad word and she has done this with many other just normal words. Tonight she just told Daryl a word was a bad word when it wasn’t. This tells me I tell her not to say things often. Oh the joys!

But I guess the ramblings can end here for now, until I can get some pictures loaded and post about our activities this past week.


Happy Halloween, ours was a good one and we had a great time, Paiglee said tonight her favorite thing is to trick-or-treat. Holidays are just fun with kids.