All aboard the crazy train

So we really haven't been up to much really. The first week of August was the fair and carnival and all that great stuff. We decided to brave it and take Paiglee for her first experience. She liked it she would not go on any rides except for the Merry go round and I had to go with her and they made me use tickets for it. Plus it is so expensive to get in, not really a fan of the prices. Paiglee really liked playing the games at the booths. She did a fishing one two times and a duck one once. And she got her little prize. I wanted a snow cone but once I saw the price I said we would do without. We walked around the fairgrounds and at the end we went to the petting zoo they had. It was by far the highlight, Paiglee and I really enjoyed that part. Daryl just isn't into animals at all, he wouldn't even touch the adorable baby pot belly pigs. But really we spent 45-50 bucks for practically nothing. If we go again we will keep our eyes peeled for the half off day, because that is just outrageous. I would spend more money if they didn't ask for my arm and leg at the door.

We also purchased a new vehicle, we have been thinking about it forever literally. And when we came back from Illinois we thought we would start looking around. We did our research and asked Daryl's parents for opinions because well his dad researches everything extensively. We have always had conversations about what vehicle to buy next, and never could agree. But finally with expecting this baby and then babysitting a couple days a week, we both knew we would need a bigger vehicle. I would have loved an SUV or crossover but really they just aren't that economical or logical. So we decided to shop for either a Toyota Sienna or a Honda Odyssey. We looked a lot, and it just so happened that we were able to find one in the Rock bottom. It of course was overpriced and we just looked to compare. But after weeks of looking and waiting it out (we almost lost it, if it weren't for my feeling we had to go back) we were able to get an amazing deal I mean literally we walked away feeling like we just took it to the car dealership. A lot of factors played in our favor and we were able to make the purchase for our original price range. Whoot, Whoot!

We Absolutely love our van, it came with all the perks we weren't looking for. One quick funny story: So we decided to get this First Place Finish done to it (when you spill it won't soak in and wipes right up) but we didn't do it the day we drove off with it. We took it in the other day to have it done. Paiglee is in love with this van, she asked what we were doing I said joking we are taking the van back. She looked panicked almost and said no I don't want to get the White car. No this is my van. I told her, no I was just kidding we are just getting it cleaned, the whole drive there she just repeated, this is my van I don't want the white car. Then when we pulled up to give it to them, she refused to get out. Daryl took her out and she arched her back and began crying, with arms and legs flaying in the air. She cried the whole way home and I had to sit outside to calm her down. When we went to pick it back up she was so happy to have the van back. I just couldn't believe her reaction to it.

I had my OB apt this several weeks ago, I had to take Paiglee and I was kind of not wanting to because last time she came I got bad news. I know totally stupid, right? Daryl laughed at me. I am just a superstitious person, I know. I can't help it after all the apts I have had with this one and everything is good. I still get so nervous to hear the heart beat, afraid it won't be there or the Ultra Sound what if I see the same thing again. It rocked my little world and still does. But every time I hear the heart beat a huge relief comes over me. But I know a week before my next apt I will have anxiety again. The "what if" kills me. But who knows I am sure by then I will be feeling the movements and then be able to reassure myself that way. But really everything is fine. I just get bouts of craziness, I call it crazy brain. But I must add I have mellowed out the further along I get. I was completely paranoid really early on. It is really quit comical, Daryl called me the crazy train, and when we left Illinois Daryl's dad said as we were leaving all aboard the crazy train (of course out of good humor). It is hard not to laugh at yourself when you know darn well you are being crazy, but really you have an underlying factor that doesn't allow you to be otherwise. The crazy train has slowed, but I know it will be here the whole time. I think it is there with any first time mom, and anyone who has ever had losses it just makes it worse. It may affect others to different degrees, but it will always be there. I have actually had a pretty good pregnancy, I only complained when I was sick and once I figured out the tricks for this one it wasn't too bad. My headaches just went away eventually one day and I still battle with some nausea and lack of appetite but really I don't have many complaints. My belly has taken forever to pop, really it is just my belly fat and not so much baby in my opinion. Maybe in the last few weeks it has popped but I still think I am in the stage of are you fat or are you pregnant.

17 weeks laying down, otherwise you can't tell

Paiglee was trying to get in all the pictures and running around me.